My First New Year's Resolution

I don't usually have a new year's resolution. On contrary I actually think of them as being really idiotic. Why wait for the coming celebration of the New Year to starting changing your life, why not start now? why have you not started yesterday? why wait for 365 days for a life changing decision only you can make.

Given that I have had a rough end of the year. I have been dumped by a girl that is pretty much impossible to understand (seriously), I have been feeling a sense of neglect from my job, and to top it all off our family has this invisible tension which only me and my sister are the only ones willing to do something about it.

Since my life changing decisions happens to coincide with the coming New Year, I feel this is a perfect time to make my first New Year's Resolution. 

And what else would it be but "to get my life moving!" I remember when I started my work in my current office. I was excited that this would be a great stepping stone. I had dreams of doing this after a year, doing that after 2 years, Now look where I am? Still stuck with that job and I find myself trying to find the enthusiasm and passion that I had when I starting in the office in the first place. I find it very difficult to find that 'fire' that got me going. The 'fire' that is making me go "I don't really care much for overtime, I'm doing this as long as it is needed". I don't have that 'fire' anymore. And I'm constantly looking for it now.

I have however found my 'fire' elsewhere. Found it in myself, in improving my art, improving my body, improving my life in general. Then I realized that I lost my 'fire' when I starting courting that girl, the same girl that dumped with a reason of 'it just doesn't work' (even though we haven't even tried, and she's not willing to do so). I found that she was the distraction that got me forgetting what I was supposed to be doing. A distraction that made me forget what I aimed to do in the first place, to be a great artist.

I don't really hate her or angry at her. I just realized that she was the setback that happened. Creating art with a clear mind is much much more beneficial than with negative emotions. I know that now. To be honest I'm even thankful. She made me want to work for my health and stop smoking and start hitting the gym. I've lost about 17 kg because of her. and developed a habit for my exercise! Hooray!

 Now I'm compensating for the time lost. Learned what I have from my experiences in the past year. And to never lose sight of what I really need for myself.  I have so many things to do... I must never forget.  

Happy New Year!

Only sketches for now, lots of things to do at work.

Sketch

Geralt of Rivia from The Witcher sketch

I'm a big fan for Warhammer 40k Universe, especially the video games. My favourite unit of all of them was the 'Vindicare Assassin'. Then I read the lore. And they just got alot cooler.

They are basically cliche trainedtobeanassassinsincebirth type of guys. But given that they use them for a purpose in the dark universe of W40k. It seems like abducting an orphan puts morals aside in this W40k.

And since I just got my Awakening: Art of Halo 4. It seems like it's the perfect time to create my own version of these vicious beasts.

At first I incorporated a bit of Spartan Mjolnir II armor designs from Halo 4...

Then I thought It was too bulky for a master markmsman so I ook some of the platings out just leaving the Synskin. Only some though I like the Left shoulder plating and the Chest plate. Also minimized the leg plates to be give my assassin more mobility.

Now I'm just thinking if I should incorporate giving it a cloak or not... Felt like the cloak is a tad bit off tho... But..kinda works. a bit... I think I'm going for the one without though

LOL!

LOL! It has been like ages since I last updated. Been studying alot on my freetime, some of my officemates gave me some tips as well so it has really been a very 'learn-y' experience ever since!

Here are some what I did

Yeah.. been reallly busy

oh... Hi!

HA! Finally found the time to update my little excuse for blog. Since I'm always preoccupied about work and well I basically just get lazy to update my blog.  And since it's a long weekend here I have plenty of time to work on my paintings and a little practice on digital painting as well!

First off! Sketches from work. I could only do a few since sketching during work isn't really allowed.

Finally able to find the best position for my two lamps. Gave my painting area sufficient lighting now.

My Current Painting. Almost done, Realized that I shouldn't force myself to paint something that I don't even like painting. It ends up being erased and forgotten. Need a little more tweaking especially the hair and wee bit on the face.

Thoughts and Sketches

Did some sketches and some progress on my painting today!

I woke up today from a 12 hour sleep (that would be because I had no sleep yesterday). Everytime I have a free time even for a small time, I think of a concept... a concept for a character, a story, a villain, basically anything. I start from a simple ideas or a simple line from a song that can be a basis for a character or a story. Like before I thought of a character in my head when I was watching the "Firefly" series, from the opening song, the line "You can't take the skies from me..." I mean it was a simple small line but it just gets me. It can be like a character that has nowhere else to go and finds his refuge or retreat? It's just amazing how simple lines and ideas can change. And it's basically one of the foundations why artists are great and why people do the arts. It is to convey their own personal representation of ideas from other people or their own unique idea on it's own. These are the things I think about, I don't write poems so I put my ideas into my painting, art and my blog.

I've been reading on this book for months now ("Traditional Oil Painting" by Virgil Elliot). And I'm just fascinated by Rembrandt's techniques. So this painting is a study on trying a "Rembrandt" style. I did notice the harsh contrast in his paintings and I"m trying  it out here... The details on the face are still "meh". But I like the black now, and I think I was able to pull-off that lace thing on her dress.

This one is a painting that I just started. I always tried doing the subject before the background first and it kinda ended up when I'm doing that background I have to disturb an area that I've already done. So I'm trying it Background then subject on this painting. I'm still hooked on finishing the other painting (above). So I haven't delved on this yet.

THESE! These sketches I did from weekend to today. I'm kinda... trying out a Glen Keane style... so I kinda succeeded I think... Theres more! but the page of the other sketch pad is not full yet so I think it might be a waste if I uploaded it while the other sketch pages are still "in the work" per se.

I really think I should name my paintings....

What the...?

I've been  lurking around the drawing practice websites doing some sketches and I stumbled upon on my facebook. Just realized... why would people have a conversation on their Facebook Walls rather than using an IM feature of facebook itself. I just find it... "Idiotic" and a bit of a show off, which I both hate. This just shows that they want the attention of random friends looking and peering in their conversation. I mean who are they to show-off? and it's not even something worthy of showing off(conversation per-se), it looked like personal information being conversed via the Facebook Wall. It was as if they feel that their sooo important that they want others to know what they were doing. *sigh* This age seems soo... stupid. On top of that I was supposed to sleep before checking my facebook... Now it's just bugging my head.

Other than that I realized that I don't have someone to bounce Ideas with. A person that shares the same interest as me, with the same passion as me, and same dedication. I kind of made an experiment with my peers before in terms of scheduling. Before I always initiated scheduling of our peer events, and I thought "This is tiring as hell... I'll try to just sit back and let them fix these shits". And unsuprisingly nothing happened  even up to now. They don't have a dedication of creating bonding moments for us to use a social glue to hold us together, I am the only one that giving effort into it. It just seems sad now that I think about it. None of my peers are willing to give any effort or concern to our circle of friends, to make it stronger. Giving my initial "note to self" into light. I have no one else to bounce Ideas with. I'm thinking of a halloween themed painting but no one else would give me a good idea.

It just seems stupid that I asked this person, "What would you think a good concept for a halloween themed painting?" the person replied "It's your call dude". Not exactly helpful... *sigh* heres me hoping that I meet someone passionate, positive and oozing with creativity. A person I can bounce ideas with...

Oh yeah and here's the sketches. Been practicing with my chinese ink and brushes... But trust their better than my first inking trials.

Just Sketches today

Did alot of sketches today...just sketches. Heavily inspired by Jim Lee sketches :D

Art For today

This is another Painting based of a sketch from A Doctor Sketchy Event: "Dream and Delirium"..

The sketch it was based off... to be specific the lower sketch :D

Works in Progress!

Must finish these tomorrow! At least one...

Old Paintings...

These are my abit older works... I wasn't able to post them before for the lack of a camera.

The book I was reading suggested on working with only two colors a red and a yellow and just add more colors as you progress. So this is my study on the 2 color palette study.

This one is one of the painting that I'm thinking of changing. It's the first painting that I've done before that is on a large canvas. It just lacks... 'substance' so I'm thinking of redo-ing or modifying the painting

It's a Spesss Mareeen! hehe... Always wanted a space marine painting on my wall.

Just retouched this recently that's why the middle part is shiney.

The wall! It shall contain more of my painting here! another wall contains the abstract painting that I did above sub

Back! Seriously this time

I've had an artist block for the past month, couldn't think of anything to draw or paint otherwise. Then I though of a great to exercise my creative muscles, D&D. It helped alot. I've been drawing and painting now.

It also inspired me to have a certain 'identity' on my theme and such. Student of the Seven is a paragon path of bard in D&D and I really liked the idea of a group of 7 mystics are heavily shrouded in mystery(in game) the only information involved about them are only covered in tales and folk lore. Their like a exarchs of a god, a sponsor of power, an angel from the astral sea, they are always not the same. No one knows what they want or what god they are under they are simply called 'The Seven'. Thus the Path Name is called Student of the Seven.